:)

2009-07-13T16:10:00.006+08:00

I love you my army boy! Please get well soon babe, i miss you so much.

Just 3 days ago, on Tuesday, boyfriend told me he passed his IPPT, and obviously i'm so proud of him! Who doesn't, am i right? He kept saying how much he missed me and couldn't wait to see me, hug me, kiss me and all. So cute lar you baby. Hehe! :)

BUT sadly on another note, he's down with fever since yesterday. He called me this morning to inform me that he's getting sicker, weaker and there's no improvement in his condition and well, his temperature rise up to 38.9 degrees! He'll be sent home because of his high fever. Ohhhhh im so worried you know?! I really wish you a very speedy recovery babe, please do! I'm really looking forward to see you:)

Though he's back home today, i won't be meeting him because i don't wanna get infected by him!HAHAHAHA! -evil smile-

Instead, i'm going to O-Bar or Double O today to party! Am i evil or what?! I'm out partying while my boyfriend's sick? HAHA. Well actually, i'm gon celebrate my bestfriend since primary school, Ali, who's turning 21 this Monday! This is so called the pre-advance birthday celebration:) Had this planned out weeks ago and i'm really really excited! Can you imagine how excited am i?!

Here are amongst those who's gon be attending the celebration tonight. Enjoys!

Isn't she such a cutie!

Juz, Ali, Ita, Ana, Din

Lately, I have been keeping myself occupied and distracted by spending time with them eversince boyfriend's in ns. I must say that i really appreciate their presence. Somehow we're getting much closer than we used to. I love them so much! Baby, don't be jealous okay cause i love you too:)!

A VERY HAPPY ADVANCE 21ST BIRTHDAY, SILLY! Hope you'll have a blast tonight! ;)

How i really wish you could be with me tonight Fadzuly....

2009-07-08T16:58:00.007+08:00

I MISS YOU!

I'm so hungry!

I told my maid to cook and pack for me maggi goreng and also rice today. And as per usual, i always pack home cooked food my maid and grandma cooks everyday without fail. The maggi, i intend to eat it for breakfast and rice during lunch. And so she did. I opened it during lunch only to find out she packed me just the rice by itself without any dishes! She expects me to eat it just like that? Haha tell me how to eat my lunch with just plain rice without any dishes?! So cute la she. I was smiling to myself. It's alright, i just have to bear with an empty stomach till i end work later. Hahaha.

It's a lie if i say that i'm used to boyfriend booking in and out from tekong. I'm still new to this, trying to adapt to this routine but well, it's still too soon you see. I don't know bout how others feel but i sure am not getting used to it just yet. Like hello, it's only his 3rd book in. Just give me another month and i'm sure it's gon get better. This week will mark his 1 month serving ns. How fast is that?!

Went karaoke-ing session with Ana, Din, Juz, Ali and Rin last friday, just to keep myself occupied since boyfriend's still in camp. Did a lil bit of shopping at Zara before that since it was on sale. I was quite disappointed cause most of the items i wanted are not favourable to my size. Tskk. I just managed to get two tops for myself, without even trying it cause the queue at fitting room was so long! So i just bought it anyway. Only to find out that i couldn't fit into it when i got home! It's too big although it's sized S! I couldn't exchange it since sales items are non-refundable and non-exchangeable:( Just not my luck. I think i might just give it away or something.

I did promised myself to be home early on that day cause i promised boyfriend that i'll be fetching him from Pasir Ris. But i left him disappointed -i thinkkkkk- cause i couldn't wake up and make it on time. Actually i thought i could cause i was already halfway through the journey but uh uh haha, i waited for him at Lavender instead. Well i told myself at least i did showed some effort to be sweet am i right? Haha no im joking.

We did some shopping at town for abit and headed back to my home for dinner and also to get my passport. Initial plan was to buy some dvds at Johor but dad has already bought all the latest movies. Heee! We had a movie marathon for 2 straight days and it feels so great getting to spend the whole time together for 3 days 2 nights. It feels so wonderful seeing him beside me each time i wake up in the morning:). One thing that i'm touched is that my parents gave us our privacy, which i never thought they ever would.

I miss my sister, Syahidah. It's been a week since i last saw her. She went on a study trip to KL last week. Now, she's undergoing home quarantine over at my uncle's place for SEVEN days cause one of her friend was infected by H1N1. Mom told me that she called and sounded so terrified sounding like she's almost crying, "Mama, i don want to die! Can i die because of this?!! Will i?!" OMG! It sounded hilarious! HAHAHA! She's so cute and funny la. You're only being quarantined my dear sister. Not as if your infected or something -hopefully NOT- What mom told her was freakingly unexpected though. She asked her to stay away from her and don't ever come home espeacially if she's around, not until her quarantine has ended. She's afraid she might get infected by the virus! She's more prone to get infected since she's working in hospital and she's not afraid ar?! -_-

Next week boyfriend's bunk mate's getting us free tickets to Harry Potter's movie! Weeee! I'm very much excited! After which, we'll be celebrating Ali's 21st birthday at Timber:)!

1 more day to Fad's book out!! :D

2009-06-28T22:10:00.005+08:00

I miss you baby.

Speechless. Lost. Lonely.

Spending time with you these few days and having you taking care of me and giving me all the attention is more than enough. I'm touched and honoured, seriously. I miss your everything, your smell, your touch, your warmth. I'm more than happy getting to spend these few days with you. It's been really sweet and lovely. I love you baby.

2009-06-25T17:15:00.002+08:00

Fad's supposed to be calling me by now. He books out at 3pm today BUT i have yet to hear any news from him. I'm so worried. He called to inform me last night that there was 1 H1N1 case in Tekong. And IF anyone were to get infected by today, before he books out, all of them will be quarantined for A WEEK, at TEKONG, mind you. Isn't that depressing to know that your partner have been staying in for 2weeks and now, with these viruses, they'll have to extend for another week. OMG i really think that SAF is so irresponsible. Why dint they take safety measures before recruiting those new cadets when they had already known and it's pretty obvious that H1N1 is everywhere now. You guys are really so ridiculous. I pity that poor boy because as mentioned by Fad, he had already reported sick on the first day he booked in which is on Monday. Note that. Still, he was told to do light duties. Why? Because they thought he was just having normal kinda fever. Sheeesh. It was only known when his temperature literally shoot up drastically at night. Am i right to say they're reckless? Tsk. Ok now, how did he get infected? He went to Butter Factory last Saturday. For your info, B.F. has been infected since last Wed, meaning to say that club has been infected. On top of that, let me tell you. One of my collegue at work went to B.F too, last Friday. He was on mc on monday and today. Hopefully, he's not infected. Get well soon and have a speedy recovery.

Time checked: 5.15pm

Fad hasn't called! He hasn't turn on his hp. I'm on the verge of breaking down.

I MISS MUHAMMAD FADZULY!

2009-06-03T18:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY MUHAMMAD FADZULY!

Date: 30/31st May 2009

Baby's 21st birthday celebration at Butter Factory last weekend was a blast! Little did we expect it'll turn out perfectly awesome although it wasn't that perfect initially and a couple of our friends weren't there to celebrate with us.

I'll be uploading the rest of the pictures together with updates on this wonderful and memorable day later tonight hopefully, just hopefully.

11th June 09 marks the date where by my dearest army boy's gon serve the nation. I am totally, mentally and physically not prepared yet. The thought of it just freaks me out, a little? Wait no. Actually a whole lot to be exact. Who doesn't, am i right? Darn. 2 weeks without him, that's something new (which i have to get use to) and something which i definitely am not looking forward to. To date, we've never been apart from each other this long. It's gon be hard on me i thinkkk haha. I'd better jolly well make myself occupied for those 2 weeks. I'm sure i will, with the help of my friends i supposed? Hehehe.

Just a little note to add on before i end this entry, nothing could describe how honoured and touched i am for all the things Fad had done and sacrificed for me, be it his time, money and effort. He has been so supportive throughout all the hardships and rough patches we've been going through. For the last couple of weeks i must say that i truly enjoyed spending every single day with him. His presence and companion certainly makes me feel whole again. I believe this makes us a step closer, stronger, wiser and a better individual than we were before. I love you so much baby.

2009-03-24T12:03:00.008+08:00

I PASSED MY TP!! With a total of 10 points(: Thanks for all those wishes, i appreciate it so so much.

I'm so happy and relieved. It feels really good! Hehe. Me, being so eager (well of course! who doesn't?!), borrowed mom's car yesterday and drove around with boyfriend. Picked up Tosh from his place and later on fetched Itah at Bugis from work. Headed down to Simpang Bedok for a quick dinner. By right, i was actually feeling really sleepy and tired at that point of time cause i din't have enough rest from the previous days whereby i had only few hours of sleep. To top that up, i had to wake up as early as 6am to get ready for my TP. I had to reach BBDC at 7.30am for the warm up so what can you expect? Hahaha.

Itah's 20th birthday party pictures will be coming up soon too! Hehe(:

For now, here are the pictures for Syikin's 21st! Enjoys!

Theme: Classy
Venue: St.James
Date: 8th March 2009

Birthday girl & I

Syikin, the birthday girl:)

THE LADIES!

Once again, Happy 21st girly!! I hope you liked my gift(:! Muah!

I'm planning for a holiday before Fad's called up for NS. Well, cousin has planned a holiday trip for us at Koh Pangan Island, South Thailand, this coming May for 5 days 4 nights. Should i?

To Fad: Thanks for the suprise gift baby, i love it(:!

2009-02-24T11:19:00.005+08:00

Ita & Fad

HI! Apology to all for not updating as i promised.

My Valentine's date; (though i know its abit too late!)

Fad promised to meet me during early part of the day on Valentine's. But as per usual, he din't inform me until the last minute. Well he ended up working till 4pm when he's supposed to end at 11am. Yet again, he din't inform me until i asked what time we're meeting. - that's so not nice of you ah Fad - What a day to begin with.

I wasn't really pissed off yet at that moment because im very patient. Read me. I am patient. HAHA. So, i waited patiently for that boy to fetch me. It was already 5.30pm and he hasn't arrived. So i texted him and he said, "Hey sorry i'm at home, will be out in 10 minutes." Waaaaahh. How nice! Grrr.

He called at 6pm, only to know he lost his helmet at Vivo. What the hell was he doing there? Thought he had to extend work, almost cabbed to H.Front to fetch him from work, but nah, i was too disappointed to even see him, of course! He ruined my whole day! Pffft.

We ended up meeting only half past 7 and i wasn't happy at all. Trust me. I was really freaking pissed and upset with him. I neither speak a word nor look at him.

All of a sudden he came next to me, gave me a hug and kissed me lightly on my forehead, apologised to me. He then took out a heart-shaped necklace and gave it to me before putting it on me. How sweet! Hehehe. It's really sweet of him, really. Anddddddd what made it extra special is it has our picture craved in it. OMG! So cute and thoughtful. I mean i din't expect any gifts whatsoever but i'm pretty much honoured and flattered with his gestures which made me almost teared. Thanks baby. He later explained why he was late - he lied when he say he was home, when actually he went to get me the necklace -, how he "lost" his helmet - when he actually left it in the shop - In exchange, i suprised him with a Levi's wallet and 2shirts. And i must say that he extremely loved it like how i love my necklace hahaha!

We headed to Marina Square. Wanted to dine in at Billy Bombers but it was fully packed with couples, we don't mind waiting though, but the menu was like eeeyeerrr. We went to Breeks instead and we had our appetizers, main course and desert. Food was marvelous and price was quite reasonable. No offence but i prefer Billy Bombers because of the good food haha though it's abitttttt more costly. We headed to Suntec for a movie date with Ali and Ana, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. It's nice lah but its such a freaking long and draggy story please. 3 hours! Sheesh. Watch it if you have quality time to waste. Hehehe.

Fad was telling me how special he felt Valentine's day was because that was the day he asked me out on a date - since both were boyfriend/girlfriend-less - That was 3 years ago. Haha. Cute or what! We got hitched 5 days after Valentine's. It's still fresh in my memory though it was 3 years back then. It feels good to reminise about those days, seriously.

And i thinkkkkk i take more beautiful and clear pictures, unlike you Fad, so blury and shaky. Haha. The rest of the pictures are with him so this is all i've got.

Nikko Hotel Jakarta

I miss Jakarta! Jakarta is such a lovely and nice place please. The shopping malls are so classy! And the shopping just drives me up the wall, really. Haha.

The night before we left, my cousins and i went to a bar, Lowey and club, X2. It's veryyy nice and interesting, so much different compared to Singapore's. Met a bunch of new people and i must say Indonesian's are really friendly and nice. Not all but most i must say. Maybe it's because we get the VIP seats and were surrounded by them. Maybe only.

I'll upload the rest when i've got free time :).

Baby had his last paper yesterday! Which means he's finally graduating and THAT means he has more time for me! -wide smile- AHAR!

I have to concentrate more on my practicals from now onwards since i'm having my TP on 23 March. I'd have to clear all my stages by 9 March (in 2weeks time) or my test date will be cancelled and there'll be no refund. Please wish me luck!

To those who hasn't tried Brazilian Waxing i recommend you to do so. It makes your skin really really really smooth like a baby's, seriously. You definitely feel clean and it's really hygienic. It's very painful i'm not lying but the pain is bearable. Especially for the first timers. It's good if you bring along a company. Trust me, i'm sure you'll love it just like i do:) hehe.

**HOW COME THERE'S SO MANY MARCH BABIES?! I THINK I'LL BE SO BROKE EVEN BEFORE MARCH. SHEEEEESSSHHHHHHH!**

2009-02-17T16:31:00.004+08:00

Greetings:)
I'll be updating hopefully by tonight, about my Jakarta trip, Valentine's day, my new pet (believe it or not, a kitten!), and my upcoming 3 years anniversary with Fadzuly (2 days time!).
So please stay tune, pictures coming up!

2009-01-31T03:37:00.005+08:00

I'd have to renew my passport tomorrow though i'm feeling unwell. I hope mom/dad is able to accompany me there or else i'd have to go all by myself. I'm so lazy and feeling so weak.

CNY eve was well spent with my family and also boyfriend:). Played Laser Quest. Afterwhich we went to Clarke Quay for the G-5 Freefall Bungy. It was helluva ride please. I rode it with Fad and Azlan. My voice was stuck in my throat when i reached the peak cause i could no longer scream or shout out loud. It was really fucking scary and the moment it went up (reverse motion), i really regretted. Really! No kidding. It's as if i payed to get myself killed. In another words, own suicide where i have to purchase a ticket before i die. Kononnya DIE in style lah, that's why i'd have to pay. Like what the hell. Hahaha. ANDDD moreover i'd have to be the so-called "pilot" (Fad siang2 says that he doesn't want to cause he kental. Azlan back out on ME the moment we reached the peak, when at first he was confident enough to be the pilot" hahahaha. Sampai hati bully me okay. Pffftttt.) because i'd have to press down the handle bar with some force mind you, once i see the light turned green from above, in order for it to free-fall. I was shivering and trembling with fear at that point of time. It took me 5 freaking mins (longer than everrrr) to push down that freaking handle bar!! Just imagine you're at the 7th/8th storey building facing downwards (and it's very steep! and there is no handle bars for you to hold or even rest your foot on to!!). But it was really an incredible experience. Go on and try it okay? Hehe.

So on CNY itself, Fad and I went camping at East Coast with Shukin. Omg that was super last minute plan. First thing first, my hp was left with Fad, next is i was informed bout this at 10pm? And then, while on the way, it was already drizzling. Lastly, while we were about to pitch the tent i say around 3am, we found out that Fad's tent was a disaster. Well i din't mean to say that okay sayang. Haha but really, at any point of time that tent could be blown away by the wind (even when we're in it, seriously). Geez. Why? Cause it doesn't even look like a tent lah okay. Hahaha. Sorry boyfriend. Hehe. I'll bring mine next time okay cause yours is already un-usable.

Anyway, i'm going to KL on Wednesday night, right after work. My flight schedule is on Thursday at 4.55pm. Troublesome kan have to go KL to take my flight. I know. Haha. Everything have been booked and provided by my cousins and uncle. It's a family thing so i'm fine with it. :)

Tomorrow i'll be staying at home when everyone out there is having fun. Hello, it's saturday for goodness sake. And i'm home? Haha. Boyfriend will be out to the Street Dance Party with his boy-friends. I'm sorry itah but i can't meet you guys tomorrow because i'd be boyfriend-less! Haha. We'll meet you guys again sometime okay? So how's Marina Barrage? Suka? Hahaha.

2009-01-29T15:09:00.004+08:00

Hi all. I'll be away to Jakarta next week, Thurs to Mon, 5th to 9th Feb.

I've not renewed/extend my passport yet. Please emphasize on that. Yes, i have not. Now i have like err less than a week to do that? Haha.

Hey that's all for now:). Stay tune for more.

2009-01-19T14:44:00.001+08:00

Happy 35 monthsary!

I wanna keep this forever, for you have changed my life tremendously.

I'm always here right behind you to support in whatever you do and any decision you make. I know it's quite stressful for him now since he's busy with school and exams, and he will be graduating in weeks to come. Not only that, he has to manage and divide his time equally for work. And specially for me too! Hahaha.

On another hand, yesterday, his bike has been toyed by someone really cruel who tried forcing a key or sharp or hard object to start the engine. And now, its all dented and also there's huge problem with his engine and stuffs. Omg how cruel can that person be? We went through this a couple of times, even before he changed his bike. That cruel person purposely pushed his bike and inserted something in his exhaust pipe and it sounded as if its gon explode and give way anytime. No kidding. What is wrong with these people? It's really really heartbreaking i tell you. Moreover this new bike of his has never made any problems before this. And is was so so well the day before this happens! He had his brother lodge a police report to find the culprit but so far there's still no news from them. How saddening. It's really costly to have it repaired, seriously. Due to its damage.

Ok till then. I'll be seeing Fadzuly after work to so-call celebrate our anniversary. Hehs.

Meanwhile please pray that such things won't happen to us again. Muah.

2009-01-16T13:12:00.001+08:00

Finally im back! It's been hectic schedule for me due to shifting of new office hence no updates.

Stay tune for more pictures and updates! Muahh!

2009-01-03T16:07:00.004+08:00

New Year Eve with my lovelies

I'll update soon, when time permits. Takecare and have a good day to all!

2008-12-24T11:51:00.002+08:00

Hi all! I'm off to KL in hoursss time. Hehehe.
Plans for the week:
Wed: Party
Thurs: Karaoke/Movie Session
Fri: IPL & Brazilian Waxing (i'm scared!!!), viewing of Kak Long's new apartment
Sat: Water Rafting (i can't wait for this really hehehe)
Sun: Back to SG
There's more to it but i'm just plain lazy to blog the details. Hehe. Enjoy your holidays everyone!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2008-12-23T12:48:00.003+08:00

Why hello there! I'll be away to KL tomorrow (since my company's on half day in observance of Christmas Eve). I'll be back by Saturday or Sunday. It depends. Boyfriend might probably be coming along. Hehe. I bet i'm gon have lots of fun and entertainment! Weeee! Hehe.

On a lighter note, deep down i feel shitty. Why? Eventually my bestfriends and i had plans on the Eve, but i had to turn them down. Shucks. I'd like to apologise them and espeacially to my beloved girl, ANA, because i'm unable to join you guys at the very last minute. I know you guys are way beyond disappointment upon knowing i'll be away. It's not on purpose, really. Sorry guys. I'll make it up for you guys on New Year's Eve instead. Promise.

2008-12-20T23:12:00.007+08:00

2 December 08

Ben & Jerry's & Chicken Dallas & Ribs
11 December 08

Look, it's so cheap. The spicy wings meal comes with 6piece chicken wings, 1 packet of french fries and a coke. Compared to other fastfood outlets, i find these super cheap and it tastes good:) Go and try it out!

I miss that favourite boy of mine so much.

2008-12-17T23:30:00.004+08:00

Ita Ali Ana

The day where they both suprised me fetched me from work (awwwwww so sweet i almost teared ok) and later, we head down for dinner together.

I love the girlfriend very much as well as the boyfriend! Opps, don't be jealous ok babe. Haha. Basically i'm so happy and proud of you guys.

Singapore VS Vietnam, Sunday, 21 December 08

Had bought tickets to watch the match! It has been 3 consecutive years i've been heading down to the stadium to support Singapore. Haha. Am i a loyal Singaporean or whaat? I think i AM. Hehehe. I'm sure it'll be very crowded. Whatever it is, im thinking to dress up in RED that day. Hehs. Whoever who are free, please come down and support Singapore ok? HAHAHA.

My company will be having an advance Christmas party today, but sadly, i won't be able to make it:(. And also, we are closed on 26 December, the day just after Christmas. Well, my boss had officially told us yesterday. OMG. A super longg weekend for me! Wheee!

BE JEALOUS. Hehs!

2008-12-15T11:45:00.001+08:00

GRADUATION AT SWISSOTEL

26 NOVEMBER 2008

The little ones who never fails to make me smile all day, Aleeya and Danick

BATAM

22 NOVEMBER 2008

KAK ANI'S ENGAGEMENT

6 DECEMBER 2008

Let's do a quick recap:

I went for a midnight movie wit Fad, The Earth Stood Still, casting Keanu Reeves (OMG he's so HOT!), on Friday night. Town was so packed and roads were so busy with traffic. Hey anyway, geez the storyline is so weak and pathetic. I was expecting more. Pfft. After the show, both fad and i decided to spend time for a little while and as we were too engrossed in updating each of our lives, we din't realised it took up more than 2hrs of our sleeping time, and it was already 3.30am. We need to be home cause fad's working the next day. Oh here's the most traumatic part. We happened to find out that the carpark's shutter is closed and there's no way for us to get home by his bike:(. That's because we parked at an unauthourised building. Haha! It's funny you know cause we din't read the notice which states, "Carpark closed at 1am". I mean i've NEVER come across such things before, but now, after we've encountered this, it makes us to be more alert next time. Hehs. Well, we're only able to take it at 6.30am. Disheartening and heartbreaking you know. So we cabbed home thereafter. Upon knowing the incident, Mom laughed at us knowing how silly we were. Pfft.

Anyway, if you're intending to watch a movie, i would recommend you guys out there to watch Twilight. I would be watching it for the second time though, can you believe it? Hehe. It's gon be with the bf this time round. :) Hehe.

Anyway, i'm quite contented with the way my life is now, i jolly well do i must say. Be it work or family or relationship or friends. Christmas is next week! Meaning i have another week to get dad a gift for his birthday. While Ali's still in camp, he has already planned to have a gathering with us once he book out on Christmas. Since Din is also booking out, he's gon drive us around. Hehe. You're the saviour, you know:) Hehe.

Hey speaking of National Service, Fad has received a letter from the government for his medical check up. Goodness gracious. That's the last thing i would wanna hear and know about. That means he's gon serve the nation pretty soon, it's all the matter of time now. Cause anyway, he'll be graduating in 2months time. Speaking of which, I'm not mentally prepared yet. How?

2008-12-12T15:56:00.002+08:00

Spa, massage and shopping session with mom tomorrow. Since the REST are all in KL now. Might be joining them over the next weekend. Let's go, shall we cinta? :D

And as for today, i will be having movie marathon with Fadzuly. But just right before that, i hope i would have uploaded ALL my pictures from my hp and camera so i could upload my pictures here. :)

2008-12-11T16:24:00.002+08:00

Cousin's engagement 6 November 08

More pictures coming up! Stay tune!

2008-11-27T17:00:00.002+08:00

I'll be uploading pics by tonight, hopefully, depending on the situation. Cause cousin (from KL) and i are planning to watch QUARANTINE tonight. She came all over to attend a seminar cum course for Spa & Beauty Theraphy which costs ard 4k, for 5 days. I think its very costly but, it must be worth spending for:).

Okay now a lil update on our Batam trip. It was MORE than fantastic. Awesome, fabulous, you name it, you got it. Hehe. Food is HEAVEN. Shopping wise was good too, but you can't beat them food. Like seriously. I think i would have gain weight if i were to stay there because i eat ALOT, excuse you. Trust me on that. You'll love the food more than shopping. HAHA! Why? Because it's sooo cheap yet very delicious. And oh, did i mention that you're allowed to smoke in the shopping malls? And even in the restaurants? Well, you ARE allowed to smoke. Weird but cool, right? Hehe. Kin, the video is very kinky and jiggy-wiggy BUT cute kan! But it must be a disgrace to all of us, hey no, excluding me! HAHA! Super funny okay. The best part was when we were playing this drinking game. HAHA! You know i know, we all know what it's all about. HEHE!! I want more please? Faster faster get your salary must celebrate! Haha okay enough. Like i've mentioned earlier, i'll be uploading the pictures when i have time later, moreover boyfriend's sleeping over to work on his project. So yeah.

On a lighter note, my friends and i are having a chalet tmr for Razali's farewell before his NS.

Venue: Sembawang Home Team NS
Date: 28Nov-1Dec (4D3N)
Meeting point: CCK Interchange

BBQ will start between 8-10pm, depending on the crowd. Please bring along some cash, of atleast $25 each. These includes food, drinks and accomodation. Strictly for those who only WE know(Regenites). So what are you waiting for! Come join us!

Baby, i'm very proud of you.

SO LONG, PEASANT:)

2008-11-21T16:46:00.002+08:00

Batam trip tomorrow! -BIG SMILE-

EXCITED EXCITED EXCITED! EXTREMELY EXCITEDD:D!

Will be back with proper updates when im back, promise.

Good day to all of you lovelies.

2008-11-19T13:33:00.004+08:00

Happy 33rd monthsary to US! MUAHHH! :)

ANDDDDDDDDDDDD

2 more days to BATAM baby!

Have yet to buy my toiletries! Will be getting them tomorrow, i hope, either with Fad or Mama. Having said that, i've not packed my clothes either. -_- Holy crap. Am DOOMED. HAHA.

Sunday: Went to Swissotel wit my family, grandma, uncle and mikhail for Danick & Aleeya's graduation. They had to dance and perform on stage. They looked so so adorable and cute:)!! Had buffet. Food was superb. Ambience was great and everything else was perfect. SPLENDID.

Monday: Bestfriends, Ali & Ana picked me up from work. How sweet and thoughtful of them kan! Hehehe! Went to Vivo and had dinner and the list goes on. Anyways...... Am looking forward to the chalet next week guys!

Tuesday: Met babylove and went home for dinner. Thereafter we met a buyer for BF's bike. Headed to meet BF's friend, Ah Long (i myself don't know his real name after 4 years knowing/seeing him!) HAHA! Funny. And each time when i see him, for sure he'll make me laugh. He's a fucking funny cute idiot okay! Hahaha! And afterwhich i call it a day. I was kinda depressed and sadded okay cause i wanted to buy this particular stuff but it's not available anymore. GRRRRR!! Geram jeee.........

Today: Will be packing my stuffs since im not meeting BF today:).

Will upload pictures when i have the time ok. Hehe!

Okay later again lovelies. MUAH!

2008-11-12T15:00:00.002+08:00

I got my very own HTC Touch Diamond now! I love love it! HEHEHEHE! As for Bf, he has a new handphone too, Sony EricssonW350i:)!

9 more days to Batam!! YAY!

I noticed people like to judge a particular person, assuming/pretending that they know bout he/she and what's going on and so on, without even knowing the truth. I don't even criticise people on their appearance whatsoever eventhough YOU did. I mean, why should i? Haha. And and anddddddd even so, i DIDN'T ask for anybody's opinion. They themselves willingly tagged me. So if your not happy then its YOUR problem. Look at yourself in the mirror first before you say anything bout me. HAHA. LOSERS.

2008-11-10T09:28:00.007+08:00

So let me roughly tell you why was Zarifah not happy with me and my dad,

ita says:

asal nick gitu?

ita says:

whats wrong are you okay?

*

* You can't send a nudge to this contact because they're using Web Messenger, not Windows Live Messenger.

*

ita says:

ifah..?

ita says:

u ok tak beb..

ita says:

if u don feel like sharing wit metakpe..

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

because it's abt your dad. bye

ita says:

ape?

ita says:

asal ahh?

ita says:

ape nie?

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

tanye dier uh.

ita says:

takpe la

ita says:

kk takecr

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

takde uh.

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

dier tak perlu uh nak so calculative. 2nd day raya mesti orang nak amek leave, itu pun nak deduct gaji.

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

kauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. ini uh melayu. dgn melayu pun takleh kasi muke. bingit siak.

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

bulan ni gaji tak jejak 1k langsung eh! pathetic eh!

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

tolong faham

ita says:

huh

ita says:

so pasal gaji u bingit ?

ita says:

nak tlg faham camne

ita says:

i donno a thing okk...

ita says:

don talk as if i know lah.

ita says:

then wat u say to them or my dad?

ita says:

i donno ape n sape yg involve nie

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

YOUR DAD LAH PANDAI POTONG GAJI ORANG! SIAL UH. SIAPE TK BINGIT!

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

I DONT MEAN TO GET YOU INVOLVED UH BUT AT TIMES I REALLY HOPE YOU CAN LIKE KNOCK SOME SENSE INTO YOUR DAD UH!

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

SUKE HATI DIER JE NAK POTONG, DIER POTONG. DAH LEPAS PROBATION PERIOD PUN MASIH NAK SO CALCULATIVE.

ita says:

wat u want me to say

ita says:

u got take mc ke leave

ita says:

ur pay supposed to dpt bape? da kire ?

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

1.2K

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

i took 1 mc. 1 leave ( WHICH IS 2nd DAY RAYA! for crying out loud). dah tu je. with 3 HOURS OT! itu dier tak kira.

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

if u were me uh, u working with my dad. mesti u geram right?

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

i dont mean to be mean to you uh. but i am fucking pissed right now.

ita says:

depends la

ita says:

if my fault tak ah.. if i yg nvr come ke mc or amek leave i paham why gaji dpt cket ah.

ita says:

ala 2nd day raya kan memang patut keje kan?

ita says:

then u take leave eh?

ita says:

then gaji potong sal tu?

ita says:

kan?

ita says:

if yg tu i paham lar..asal kene deduct.

ita says:

but wait, u takde paid leave?

ita says:

tell him ah u ot 3hrs

ita says:

ade jot down tak

ita says:

nie bende sume kene list down

ita says:

jadi leh tahu ape day ape day u nvr come

ita says:

i just work for 1 and half mths

ita says:

i took total 3-4 mcs. half day da 2 ke 3 kali amek..

ita says:

lagi teruk kan then u

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

memang tkde paid leave but u dont have to be so stingy with just 50 bucks la. MY COMPANY YG PAY HIS COMPANY TO PAY MY SALARY

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

i gave him the TIME SHEET, i dont understand why he pandai2 make his own deduction tau!

ita says:

how u know ur company pay his company eh?

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

it's not as if he fork out his saving money to pay my gaji. my boss yg pay him to pay me pe.

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

they told me.

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

your dad is the middle person who pays my salary tu je.

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

& he's responsibility is to make sure i get food, i get to work in his car, & pay my gaji. itu je.

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

i never complain psl sometimes he's too early to pick me up uh. that i can compromise. 6:30 dah kene sampai lot1. pdhal 7:30 kene sampai marina. bukannye lama sangat pun marina tu!

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

if i have my own car, jgn harap uh i sit his car. tak ingin pun kalau tahu melayu makan melayu sendiri

ita says:

then gitu ckp ah pat die tros terang. asal diam2. and if kene smp marina at 7.30, why don u go keje sendiri? instead of him picking u up at 630?

ita says:

tapi. ape i know, he's paying u from his salary.

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

no. he's paying me from THE SALARY my boss nye company kasi dier.

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

i was told by 3 people ok. even my boss. coz she said IF I WANNA TAKE LEAVE, I AM ENTITLED TO TAKE 2 WEEKS BECAUSE THEY'RE PAYING. NOT JOHARI

ita says:

ok im done here

ita says:

u takecare la k

ita says:

i just don like the way u talk to me bout my dad sume so i don want to masuk campur gdluck

ita says:

and anyway i should tell u tt work is work so u have to atleast understand why ur pay is little cos u take mc or leave-gaji potong pe. mana2 tempat pon same. u think back ah. if u nak full pay lain kali jgn ponteng ke sakit k

e-fah // blearghhh! says:

your dad tak suke aku. face it.

ita says:

beh nak aku buat ape?

e-fah // like him like her. duhhh! says:

& of course u side your dad uh.

e-fah // like him like her. duhhh! says:

but if he dont like me, dont have to perangai pepek pe

ita says:

nie bukan nak side ke hape ah k

ita says:

tapi nie logic ah kek

e-fah // like him like her. duhhh! says:

be a man with balls uh at least.

ita says:

if u don like him, and u find he don like u either, buat pe keje sane lagi?

ita says:

brenti sudah la

e-fah // like him like her. duhhh! says:

no need to be so lokek with 50 bucks uh.

ita says:

duit kek

ita says:

kalau nak duit, keje lah!

ita says:

tak betol?

e-fah // like him like her. duhhh! says:

he earn thousands uh eh.

ita says:

and? ape kene mengene ngan aku?

e-fah // like him like her. duhhh! says:

orang keje tapi orang lain mata merah mcm mane nak dpt duit?

e-fah // like him like her. duhhh! says:

whatevs.

ita says:

im working wit other company jadi takde kene mengene ngan krgs.

e-fah // like him like her. duhhh! says:

k whatevs.

ita says:

kalau kau tak keje asal expect gaji lebih, tak betul? tanye diri sendiri ah

e-fah // anak dgn bapak same! otak slow. says:

bbual tkmu mcm paham eh pls.

And there she goes.......... She signed out from MSN messenger:)

So i would like to say a few words or so.

She din't turn up to work on 2nd day of raya, instead she took leave, and expected to get paid? Does that make sense at all? In case your unaware, my dad's YOUR boss, and HE hasn't given you any confirmation letter in that company. I mean does it really make sense at all? It's not about being calculative but you DON'T deserve it. Work is work. Even if you were to take leave or mc in other company, you will get unpaid leave yes? This is LOGIC and im STATING THE FACT. BUT.. My parents being so kind-hearted, unlike ME, gave her a whole lump sum of money as well as a termination letter for her (which she wasn't happy bout) due to her bad performance wise at work. Well my parents thought that would atleast make her feel happy since she already accused us for using her money and thought somehow or another she'd change. But too bad. She doesn't even know how to appreciate it. Not even a thank you to my dad when he hand over the cheque to her. Instead my dad was being called names by her. What kind of human are you? No sense of appreciation after what he has given to you? Isn't that what you have always wanted, money? I mean its already your fault and you wouldn't even admit it. Even so, have a sense of humanity please. You don have to be rude you know? Is it so hard to say a thank you after all he went through? You hurting him from time to time? Aren't you ashame of yourself? He paid you a whole lump sum which you don deserve and that was what he get? Reflect back at yourself and what you've done before accusing people for using your money. You are no better than a heartless selfish creature. You SHOULD be ashame for what you did ZARIFAH:).

2008-11-06T15:59:00.006+08:00

ENJOY!

With the sick chickenpox boy AHAR

Guess what? Mom and dad allows me to go for holiday trip, but within my OWN expenses, excuse you. Hehehe. -smile widely-

Will be going to Batam on 22-24th November, 3days2nights:).

Cousin's engagement is on 6th December, so i will be going to Malaysia on 5 December, right after work. I am so happy for you cousin! (",)

Im EVEN happier NOW because... I GOT MY PAY!! -super wide smile!- HEHEHEHE!! Ok i'm a very veryyy super happy girl now:). Hehehehe. Ok taaa!

2008-11-05T14:48:00.011+08:00

Hello earthings!

I am feeling so happy plus excited for my upcoming plans actually. Hehehe.

Andddddd I saw something pretty interesting.......... (I shan't disclose who SHE is though. Sape makan cili dia yang terasa pedas:j)

From HER:

Do you hate someone right now?

` YA! & she's anorexic, bimbotic & the daughter of a faggot who uses my money for his own use.

Name 3 things u wanna do at this exact moment.

` spit at that faggot's face, slap his daughter's face, & wave a middle finger in the air. hows that?

Who was the last one to give you money?

`` some old man who secretly takes other people's money for his own use!

Current hate?

` that faggot & his anorexic daughter!

In case your not aware, she WAS my bestgirlfriendever, excuse you. Erhh wait, but will NEVER be again. -nods head ever sooo slowly- Isn't that sad? Hah. Yearsss of friendship and this is what i get? It's okay, im happy to know what kind of person you really are, rather than knowing it later. Better late than never right? :) Anddd i NEVER thought you'd turn out this way. Thanks ex-gf:).

Hell yeah.. Thanks for being very MEAN to ME yo! Heeeeeeeeee!! If i am i anorexic, so WHAT ARE YOU:)? And why bother/care? Jealous eh? Jealous cakap je jealous. Hehe. Kecian dier. Anyway the way i look has exactly NOTHING to do wit you/your job/your pay pe. Stop being childish lah eh, grow up please. Go look yourself in the mirror first before talking bout that "anorexic girl and her dad" ok:)?

Well sometimes people just donno how to appreciate things they have/got eh? Why you hate me so much? What have i done to you? Was i the cause of you getting little salary? TELL ME. Hahs! Please think first before opening your blardy mouth ok? Hehs.

It's no use saying all that, i mean typing out nasty things about me to vent your anger? Its not healthy you know? Haha. Be professional lah darling. Tak happy, jumpa ah. Cakap depan2. Don be a COWARD. If you dare saying all that, i suggest you meet me, lepas kan semua geram pat aku lah kan lagi bagus kan rather than typing je? And do what you want like what you've written:). I'm waiting okay for your calls ok! Don't worry i wont bite.

Im hungry and sleepy! My company will be moving to Woodlands by december or early january. How great right! Hahaha! I can't wait to move in! Very near to home, very convenient somemore!! Hehehehe. Ok goodbye!! Muah! :)

Labels: NEVER TRUST ANYBODY BUT YOURSELF:)

2008-11-04T12:12:00.003+08:00

Sailormoon was told to use the safety helmet during work. Well i thinkkkkk she look kinda hideous and crappy! Wahahaha!

I can't wait!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Ok later lovelies.

2008-10-23T11:22:00.005+08:00

Dear all,

I have been feeling rather sick for a week now. Am on medication and yet i have severe headaches. Sorethroat, cough and tongue ulcers is another story. Having a check up on 30 Oct (can't wait really), right after my FTT. I have not passed my evaluation YET and im beginning to feel pressurized. It's a week from now to be exact. Geez. Okay put that aside. Now let's move on.

Am waiting for Christmas promotion for M1 on mid November to upgrade my line and get myself a new handphone. Im very eager yet determined to get a new one, with my hard earn money if your unaware. In case you do not know, my present handphone has been retarded for months, can't receive nor send messages and i could not retrieve my missed calls. Its driving me up the wall after tolerating and enduring with theseeee for months now. Sheeesh.

I MISS MY FADZULY:):):)

2008-10-13T11:29:00.005+08:00

Saturday went over for Fad's open house. Food was delicious as per usual! However... Mom & Dad couldn't make it cause they were tired and exhausted after work. So i went over to Fad's place together wit grandma and my siblings. Hehe.

And right after that, i rushed home and get changed to meet up with my secondary school mates. Somehow a meet-up for ex class of 2-8 or perhaps a reunion i might say? Hehe. Well well well.. It consists of me, ana, din, ali, juz and wahidin. It feels so so good to see them, though it wasn't complete. The night out was definitely a memorable one please. Hehehe. What can i say? Some are 10years or friendship while others are 8years. :j And so as planned, we headed to cash studio for a karoake session. We reached there at 1am sharp! Supposed to leave at 4am but din had to return back his car to his parents by 4am! We had no choice but to leave early. Its okay you know. What's important is we had so much FUN!! Hehehehe!! I mean this is the first time ever we went out with din driving us like a mad person and having a night out! HAHAHA. I don care if i sound so jakun, so be it. :) Too bad i couldn't stay over at ana's place cause i'm afraid mom would get furious. Moreover i din't inform mom that im going out!! Tsktsk. :'( So both din and me dropped them over at ana's and i accompanied din to his house and he later on send me home. How sweet. Hahaha. I reached home exactly at 5am and i was so worn out by then. And oh, so sad Fad couldn't join in the fun. Next time okay baby? :) I think we should do more outings, yes? :j

Sunday, 19th October (which falls on my anniversary too!) is the day where all of us are going jalan raya! Super duper excited please! Hehehehe.

So yesterday i woke up at 5plus only to find out that some of my neighbourhood secondary school friends wanted to come over for raya. Sheesh. I hadn't even had my shower when they called! Ok so let's move on. There were 10 person in total. I dont really know how and when i knew them but one thing for sure it had been years (5years) they would come visiting without fail. So sweet kan. Hahaha. Thanks alot guys. I shall visit your place someday alright. Anyway... I was delighted somehow cause i realised that one of them happened to be related with me. :) Hehehe.

Okay later again... Love love.

2008-10-11T02:44:00.003+08:00

Hello! I've lost touch with my blog close to a month to be exact! And and anddd yes, i apologise to all due to the lack of updates alright. I'll try my best to update regularly from now on okay.. ;) Hehe. So below are few pictures which are ought to be posted wayyy back then but as usual, i don have spare time to do this. It's either i'm busy working or my driving lesson/practical or boyfriend. That's all for now! So later, again:). ENJOY!

***Ifah, see! Told you, i'll update right? ;p

2008-08-29T15:03:00.005+08:00

Passed my BTE! :) Looking forward to my BTT next month. :)

Its the fasting month starting from next monday. How fast time flies! I'm still at home, rotting. AHAR! Worse to worse i'll just end up not working until after Raya, maybe. Hehehe.

Oh anyway that wasn't what i wanted to blog about. This was;

I reached home yesterday and when i was just about to wash up, momma shouted my name. I went in to her room and only to find out........

Momma: Ita, where do you always keep your shaver?

Me: In my room, inside my locker. Why eh?

Momma: Danick, he found your shaver and shave his forehead and hair!! I think because he
saw uncle shaving your atuk's hair before. That's why he tried!

Me: What the fuck! $#%!* HAHAHA!!

Momma: He almost shaved his legs also! Lucky nenek and uncle saw and his head was
bleeding! He cut himself!

Me: HAHAHAHAHA!! What was he thinking! (OK this time i really can't refrain myself from laughing!)

2008-08-28T16:44:00.001+08:00

Karoake session wit Fad yesterday was superb eventhough it was rather expensive for an hour basis. Nevertheless, we're planning to have another session again soon!

Tomorrow's my BTP & BTE. Once again. Haha. I'm SO stupid you see cause i booked it on a different date and its so far apart. Moreover i dint even read the book. Pfft. No wonder i FAILED. Tsktsk. By hook by crook i MUST study tonight and i've to pass. 3rd Sept is the last day in which i can retake/resit for my BTE . Else i can't sit for my BTT! Boy! Another fewwww days left. Wish me luck please!

As for now, i wanna get dressed to meet my sexy boy. :):):) Hehehe.

2008-08-26T18:09:00.003+08:00

DEATH RACE was AWESOME! Storyline was incredible!! :) It keeps you on the edge, killing your in-mates(on road) in order to gain your "freedom". Interesting? Yes, no? Ok whatever it is watch it if you love action-pack movies:).

Both Fad & I are craving for donuts. I must say that J.Co donuts has the best donuts everrr!! It's finger licking good and yeah it melts in your mouth the moment you bite it! Super delicious please. HOWEVER, it makes you addicted. Unless you try you'll know how it feels. :) Just the way we both are. Price is very reasonable and the taste is geez, super yummehh!

2008-08-24T15:41:00.000+08:00

Just came back from KL ytd morning at 3am. Had to do some errands for cousin's boyfriend. Actually it was kind of an easy job for me, get the dvds at heeren and send it over to him at KL. And for that particular job, i was paid $300. Hehe. Boy! It was reallyyy worth it i must say. Moreover i was provided an air ticket to and fro from SG to KUL and back to SG. :):):)

I stayed over at Ascott Hotel wit cousin and her boyfriend throughout my stay. We had movie sessions, karaoke and FOOD espeacially!! Needless to say, FUN is always there. Everything was provided and so i did not even have to spend/fork out a single cent. How lovely and sweet are they to pamper me.

I was supposed to leave for spore the following day but it was delayed few times so i decided to return back on friday. On another hand, im free and jobless, so why not stay a little longer right? Hehe.

Oh i must say that i MISSED Fad so much and i almost went nutssss! AHHHH come rescue me babyyyy!! Ok im kidding. :p

All i gotta say now is, "I FEEL BLESSED." :j

2008-08-19T01:13:00.006+08:00

We celebrated Atiqah's 15th birthday at Swensens:)

Ambience was perfect, food was good and everything else was great!

While in the car:
(Hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil) AHAR!

I'll upload the rest of the pictures when i have the time okay?

For now, just let me tell you that i'll be boyfriend-less for A WEEK cause Fad's gon be busy focusing on his exams. Goodluck baby.

Don't worry baby, i'll be waiting for you as promised (eventhough it SUCK cause it seems like FOREVERRRRR). :) -kill me-

2008-08-17T02:13:00.007+08:00

My face is getting terrible day by day. :'(

I've been meeting babylove for the past 3days and i must say that it feels totally sweet and nice. So here's the list.

On Wednesday we went to causewaypoint to watch the movie, "Journey to the Center of the Earth". It was a very adventurous show, please watch! Oh anyway after the show, we headed to 7eleven since we were thirsty and wanted to top-up the cashcard since the current balance wasnt enough for us to exit from the carpark. However, we were told that their top-up machince was not working. That was the first sucky thing. Next up, we headed to the ATM machine but upon reaching, i realised i LOST the cashcard! Thats the second sucky thing. After which, we headed to 7eleven once again, intending to buy a new cashcard. But to our dismay, all cashcards were SOLD OUT. Oh thank you that was so-not very nice. That was the third sucky thing. I felt so guilty and i can see from Fad's face that hes disappointed, though he doesn't want to admit it. Without the cashcard, no way we're getting out of the carpark. Moreover it was past midnight, no more public transport for us. Sheesh. But..... Walawalabingbang!! Ram and Mimi came to our rescue! I must thank you guys alot. If not because of my carelessness, you guys wouldn't have gone through all the hassle and trouble to make your way all the way to Causewaypoint. Well... I must say this, if it was not because of them, Fad and I would have to find the nearest 7eleven(which i donno where the hell it is) or worst still, overnight there! Hehehe.

The following day(Thursday), Fad and I went jogging! :):) Haha thats the VERY first time i ever jogged wit boyfriend after all these years! Hehe. And the very last time i remembered that i jogged/exercised was 4years ago, when i was in sec 4. That was wayyyy long ago. Heh. We jogged for almost an hour, and i have to say that i have a very bad stamina. It doesnt take me long to get worn-out, seriously. Thanks to the jog, now my legs are aching and i couldnt walk properly! Overall, it was really tiring BUT fun! :j Really, you guys should try it out. Who knows you'll end up playing catching like we did. HEHE! Right after, i washed up and packed my stuffs and we slept over at BukitBatok. :):) Together wit Fad,Atiqah, Syahidah and Naufal. He's so cute please. Haha! Before i'm off to bed, i made supper for them lovelies, a special one indeed. SPAGHETTI. Hehe. It feels good knowing that ALL of them ended up a full stomach.

So the next day(Friday), we planned to go jb but it dint happened cause we both woke up at late, 4pm!(we knew it would happened!) -roll eyes- We headed to get Fad a new pair of shoes, and then dinner. After which boyfriend stayed over at my place till 5 in the morning. I helped him wit his appeal letter, and then checking out stuffs on youtube, laughing our ass out after reading a rather interesting blog i must say and checking out porn. Nyeahaha! Okay i'm kidding.

So how was Fad and Ita's last weekdays? Let me put it in such a way that i couldn't believe it myself that it happened.

EVERYTHING HAPPENED SO BEAUTIFULLY.

2008-08-12T19:08:00.006+08:00

To the boy i love:
You never fail to flatter and pamper me. I appreciate the fact that you keep telling me how much you love me, every single day. Your the best damn thing that has ever happened to me. :)

I've booked my BTP & BTE this saturday since i've got nothing to do. To be honest, i've booked it several times before BUT due to my lazy virus(which is spreading fast through my body), i din't attend it. It's such a waste i know. Grrr! Serves me right for waking up late. So i've made up my mind and promised myself that i'll be good and attend the class this saturday! My BTT is on 10th September. So.. By hook by crook i'd have to pass my BTE. Wish me luck. :l

Have i ever told you that i have low self esteem? Okay i seriously do and i don't have confident in myself. I just don't feel good about myself, be it my looks, appearance wise and body. :'(

2008-08-12T02:37:00.002+08:00

Everything went smoothly and everything was more than amazing! :j
Im totally, hardly, deeply in love with my one and only toy.

I love you Fadzuly!

And and andddddddddd....
Just a little confession, i miss my girlfriends. :(

(NURAINI)

(ANA)

(AISYAH, ZARIFAH, LEEN)

2008-08-11T00:26:00.004+08:00

Am back from malacca!! :):):) Went back to kampung for 3days 2nights . It was so much fun getting to meet my cousins, DEFINITELY! Cause now, we only get to meet each other during Hari Raya unlike those times whereby they'll always come over whenever it's the school holidays. We chatted all the way till dawn like nobody's business. Hehe. To my suprise, they renovated their house. Its 2 storey high. Its so enormous and prettay! With the bathtub, shower room and lots more. My god its so incredible and lovely please. I mean you can hardly find these kind of accomodations in kampung's right so its somewhat a "wow" you see. Do you get me? Oh nevermind. Ok so let's talk bout my younger siblings, Aleeya & Danick kept running up and down the stairs! Haha well..... I joined them! Haha i know it seems silly but i admit theres still a kid in me when it comes to this. Hehe!! My cousin being such a jerk, kept pulling my hair and push me whenever i went down/up the stairs, hoping for me to fall and roll over the stairs. I donno why but he loves to irritate me. I've always been bullied by him since young so im used to it now. Blardy hell.

I hadnt been contacting FADZULY since i went to malacca. :( So for 3 days, i hear no news no nothing and yes, i miss that sweet boy of mine so much! Thanks to the cousins cause they were the ones who companied me and made me busy all the way so that i wont be thinking of my dear boy. Hehe!

Babylove has been so sweet to me and wanted to date me out tomorrow after 3 days we've been missing in action from each other. I'm sure theres alot to catch up!

2008-08-02T01:54:00.001+08:00

I'm counting the hours to meet babyboy! I miss him so much. Can't wait. Ahh super excited man! Oh MUHAMMAD FADZULY i want to MUHAMMAD FADZULY you anywhere i want!! HEHEHE!

2008-08-01T04:03:00.001+08:00

I know i should be sleeping by now and ohh geez i shouldn't even be blogging at this hour. Guess i'm just wayyy too stressed up considering that i've to pay $700 plus in two weeks time(due to quitting my job before my contract ended). Yea i'm not kidding. Read that. It's $700! This itself shows that i'm super doomed and that is why i'm still awake! I'm terribly worried. Ok i'm done here. Meeting itah to go to finance tomorrow.

Wish me luck please. *cross fingers*

2008-07-30T02:57:00.005+08:00

Greetings lovelies!

Boy, my phone is really driving me up the wall! I couldn't retrieve my miss calls, receive any msgs, nor could i send a msg! Such a pity right? My fault for throwing my phone over and over again(be it on the walls or the floor), considering that it's gon be okay after that. But NOOO!! I learnt my lesson and i won't repeat my mistakes again. :( And so, i pledge to myself that, I, Nur Masyita Aisyah promise that i will never throw my stuffs ever again, but instead i will take extra care and handle my stuffs properly starting from today onwards. Which means, i will no longer bring my phone to the toilet while im showering(just to listen to music so that i can sing and jump while im bathing hehe!). Basically i know why my phone's not functioning right now, partly due to my damp hands after my shower! AHAR! Seeeeee.. My phone must be so miserable having ME as it's owner. If it could talk to me or it does have hands, i supposed that it'd have cursed me from the beginning and would have slapped me, knowing that im unreasonable. Sheeesh! So people, my phone's no longer usable for now. :j Enuff said.

Ok so here's a little thing, i'm having my pms and geez it's so terrible! I would often crave for food but soon enuff i'd be craving for toilet's! And it's not only once, but several times. It's just the same as if i'm having diarrhoea. Tell me how could i gain weight in any case? Just rightttttt after i eat, i'll shit. Blardy hell.

2008-07-23T13:38:00.002+08:00

To my suprise..... I woke up at 9am today!! Although i slept at 4am yesterday. Wow im so proud of myself. Bahhhh. HAHAHA! Oh well today ive no plans so was yesterday and day before and the day before yesterday. Ok im exaggerating. Hehe.

Ok im taking my shower now, so...... Later lovelies!

2008-07-12T00:05:00.002+08:00

Mind me for my unpretty template. My fingers were itchy ytd and so taadaaa!! Here's the result. Thank me for that. o_o

So tomorrow's plan is... Meeting shikin and the boys to.... COTTON ON! Then COLOUR! :P HEHEHE! But whatever it is, i just wanna get out from home, itu aje! Boring okay. I'm like a rotten bread in this house you know. Sheesh. I just can't bloody wait for tomorrow.

Countdown: 15 more hours to be exact. That's still a long way to go!!!

2008-07-11T20:54:00.000+08:00

Girls, we'll meet sometime next week for a movie date or something alright? Hehehe! I just can't wait please:). And Ifah, even before you go for an interview, i bet you'll get it hands down:)

I'll update again soon after Beach.Ball.Babes otay!! Hehehe bye!!

TO YOU: SYAHIDAH

2008-07-11T11:48:00.006+08:00

Happy 18th birthday to my pretty adorable gorgeous sister, Syahidah! May all your wish come true and all the best to what your doing be it now or the future. We may often argue, we pull each others hair and pinch and scratch and kick and beat and cry, but you know at the end of the day we'll come to each other apologizing cause we know that we can't get separated for long. Hehehe. See you at home!! I LOVE YOU!

On a personal note, i'm very grateful to have a wonderful brilliant and lovely sis like you.
I'm feeling blissful:)
Okay later honeys.

2008-07-11T01:54:00.002+08:00

Ive been rotting at home for these couple of days, believe it or not. Haha. Im supposed to help out grandma wit the housechores and also looking after ma younger siblings but..... The only thing ive been doing was sleeping and lazing around watching tv and eat. Useless am i? Geez.

Here's a thing. Ive been feeling so down eversince the argument i had wit Fad. But i know we'll work things out eventually:). Yes, it really drives me up the wall initially(but i still love you and i know you do too cause you kept repeating that over and over again like a bad tape recorder baby). And so ive made myself occupied by watching "It's a boy girl thing" on ma notebook. Haha. Go and catch the show its hilarious and cute please. Hahaha. So thats it for now! OK BYE!!

2008-06-29T18:43:00.002+08:00

Guess what? The tickets to MOS werent f'ucking valid for entry please. That means four of us have to fork out money when we thought it was free entry for us. That suck pretty much. Overall it was not that good and not that bad either. Hehehe! So yea. I had a great time though wit ma babyboy, and also kin & shuk. Anyway i'm looking forward to watch "WANTED"! Heard from many that the show is awesome. :j Lalalalala.. Tues & wed im off so ape lagi kan! Weeee! Lagi2 i hadnt spent time wit boyfriend for so long. I miss that boy of mine so much, belum puas lagi walaopun smalam dapat jumpe but it lasts only for awhile. Cant wait to COLOUR baby!! Hehehe! Talking of work........ Work sucks so bad nowadays i feel like killing maself sometimes. Urghh. It can make me puke each time ive to drag maself to work, seriously. Bleargh. Ok bye!

2008-06-15T00:24:00.003+08:00

I'm so looking forward to my next date wit baby. It's gon be this wed! 4 several days. Hehehehe. And guess what? I'm in love wit David Cook's song. It's just so so simple, sweet and nice. Oh yea, baby get's free ticket for 2 to MOS! It's valid till 28 June 08. I must hurry and plan when to go before its due date. Each ticket is valid for 2 person and he has got 2. How cool is that? Hehehe. I'm still thinkinggggggggggggggggg....

I CAN'T WAIT TO PARTY WIT MY GIRLS THIS COMING WED!

2008-06-08T02:45:00.002+08:00

Too much to say but i just dont have proper time to update. Sorry guys i know might as well delete this blog but... I'll make a proper one soon! Ok bye!

2008-04-10T23:50:00.003+08:00

Hello all! I get a notebook of my own! WHEEEE!!! Hehehehe!! Finally i own a lappy! Woohoo!! Hehehe! This feeling is so incredible please! Momma has her own Toshiba, Syahidah her own Vaio, and me, Dell. Whatever it is im fucking greatful. :) Thanks baby for accompanying me to get my notebook and dvd player. I love you very much! Hehehe!! Of course i love you not because you accompanied me! I love you because you're my everything, you make me happy, you make me wanna dance! HAHAHAHA!!

I apologise for the longggggg disapperance. Thanks to work for making me super busy. I've been feeling so lethargic these days cause i hasn't had enough rest and sleep please. It's really making me nuts!

Anyway i've yet to upload photos that were taken during my "trip" to Singapore Flyer. Let me tell you this i went there wit nuraini plus our boyfriends and we were really excited in the first place ok! But when we stepped into the tube, my god! It feels super boring please! There's nothing much you could do ok. Plus the stupid song! It's so so so boring it makes me wanna cry and jump down!!! I felt that it's a waste paying so much for nothing. Out of boredom, both me and nuraini, went abit dorky jumping and climbing without noticing that there was a camera in that tube! Bloody hell you know!! Just be patient and wait till i upload the pictures ok.

Oh yes i've plans for a holiday trip with nuraini! Perhaps a short trip to kl, only both of us next month. Now we're still planning for a holiday in Bali! That means i've to start savingggg!! Baby remember you have to start saving too ok cause everything's gon be on YOU! My money is MY money, your money is also MY money! Hehehe!! Kidding honey!

Can't wait to meet you tomorrow Fadzuly! I'm off on Saturday can you believe it? I can't believe it either!!! Hehe!! We're planning to go shopping together with Shikin & Shukri! I'm so excited!!

Ok gotta turn in now! MUAH!

2008-03-02T18:58:00.002+08:00

I love Fadzuly!! Hehehe. I love love love him. Shit. I feel so ridiculous saying this. Ok im off now. Off to sleep! Sweet dreams. ZzzzZzzzZzzz!!!

2008-02-25T20:05:00.006+08:00

ENJOY OK! HEHEHE!!

Basically im in a good mood and therefore im quite happy for some reason. =)
First, my trainee mates are super irritating but definitely it's nice having them around cause you'll never get bored AT ALL. So far my days are always filled with smiles and laughter and for that, i'm happy. =D
And secondly, i realised that i've been good and behaving myself eversince i've started work. Hehe really! An example is that nowadays i'm always in good terms with my momma and dad. I still don't have any clue why is it so but yes im glad things are going on well. :):):) But not during those days when i'll go on shouting and screaming my lungs out even to the slightest thing. I kept on throwing tantrums to whoever whenever i like. Sheesh! But now, i'm think i've changed! Am i good or what? Chetchet! HEHEHE. Ok that's enough for now im having my dinner and soon after im going to lala land. That if Mr Fadzuly calls me before i fall sleepy!! Hehehe ok bye lovelies!

2008-02-18T22:16:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2YEARS ANNIVERSARY BABY! :):):)

Hym & Her

My cute BUT naughty brother, Danick :)

Me

Hello hello hello! I'm here just for one simple reason which is because i'm HAPPY! Hehehe. Ok that's because it's my 2years anni today!!

I miss that manje boy of mine very much lah. Macam nak gigit-gigit aje bila jumpa. I LOVE YOU FOR EVERYTHING BOY! MUAH!

2008-02-10T02:54:00.000+08:00

Today was AWESOME. You wont believe that fad & i actually spent time in the library watching a dvd named "The Experiment." Ok that was certainly because both wanted to save money. HEHEHE. Ok back to the "movie" we had. Damn! It's such an awesome one. I have to admit it is one of the best shows i've watched so far, besides The Guardian, 300 and Gladiator. Well obviously i won't elaborate bout the show but all i can say is, PLEASE WATCH IT! Go buy or rent it! I mean it. Ok that's that for today. Looking forward to monday. Perhaps Sentosa wit baby in the morning, movie at noon and yishun damp at night? Anyone wanna join us? Beep US ok. =D Haha! OK BYE!! Oh yes, i wonder why is my tagboard missing? Shucks!

2008-02-05T01:31:00.001+08:00

I MISS BOYFRIEND!!

2008-01-30T14:04:00.000+08:00

Im getting pretty excited to meet baby in few hours time. WOOHOO! Ok im off now! :j

I MISS BABY

2008-01-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

Oh i miss baby so much! I cant stand it any longer. I mean i cant hide my feelings and lie to myself. I just want to express how i am feeling now. AHHH!! I miss you you know!

Well im glad that baby's done wit four papers so far. And now he's left wit his last and final paper on Friday. I've always prayed and hoped he'll do well for his exams. Bless you baby. :)

Now all im thinking is, i cant f'ucking wait for tomorrow! Please let the time flies quickly, please! I can't wait to meet him and hug him like nobody's business!! =p

Valentine's day is round the corner. By then i've started work. It's kinda sad la because 14 Feb 2006, was the day when we first met and went on a date. *reminising* Well that was 2 years back. However it's still fresh on my mind. Thinking bout those times just made me smile wide. Heh! I sound so jiwang. I KNOW. Hehe. Okok get back to my story. The most saddening and disheartening part is that i'll be working on my 2nd year anniversary which falls days after valentine's. 19 Feb. It's a pity and i feel so depressed whenever i think of it. You guys might be thinking, "It's only 2 years. So what! Itu pun nak heboh2. Big deal. Macam tak boleh celebrate lain hari aje." It's alright to think that way because honestly i'll feel that way if i were you too. Well.. It just means so much to me la. I dont wanna elaborate because you'll know how i feel if you're in my situation. And yeah, for those of you whose not celebrating Valentine's please dont be sad. Im sure there's someone out there who's waiting for you. Be patient alright.

Oh yes before i forget, i wanna wish to all the people out there Happy Chinese New Year!! (in advance incase i've no time to update) =p

Ok that's all for now. I'll update perhaps later if im bored or tomorrow if im lazy or maybe the day after tomorrow if im super lazy and the day after tomorrow's tomorrow if im SUPER lazy andddddddd... Haha ok i shall really end here NOW. Takecare lovelies! Muah!

2008-01-26T19:39:00.000+08:00

I've been waking up as early as 6am for this WHOLE week. Believe me. Haha.

I'm starting work on 12th Feb. So prolly i've another a week or so before i'm tied up wit my work! So my dear girlfriends whom i've missed like alot, please meet me!! Hahaha.

Babydear is busy having his exams which means i hardly get to meet him these days. Boy! How much i missed him! I miss him crazy. Andddddddd i know how much he loves it and how fast his heart beats whenever he sees my number appear on his handphone! Love me. I know you do. I'll be patient and i'll wait till your exams are over alright.

I MISS MY ZARIFAH, AISYAH, SITI, FARIDAH AND ANA!**

2008-01-24T16:37:00.000+08:00

I MISS FADZULY.
I MISS FADZULY.
I MISS FADZULY.
I MISS FADZULY.
I MISS FADZULY.
I MISS FADZULY.
I MISS FADZULY.

2008-01-13T03:09:00.000+08:00

Beach, pool or gym?
Im still deciding on it. Let's see............ I wanna suntan. At the same time, i wanna learn how to swim too! Ok don laugh, it's NOT funny. Seriously, i donno how to swim. But i wanna learn. Actually im determined. :) You see, whenever im in the pool, i don swim. All i ever do is, just stand there and do nothing! My god. Its shameful ok. Haha. Or the least i would do is stay in the jacuzzi. Hehehe. Itu ajelah keje aku.

Anyway i really really really miss Bali and KL alot. Gosh those times were the best please. I love it i love it i love it!! If any of you plan to go Bali, let me know! Ok im joking. Actually i plan to go Bali sometime this year. If not, KL. Well, it looks like i've to start saving!

Hmmm........ Baby's not back yet. Im sure he's still out wit hes frens watching soccer. =) Tell me how are we suppose to wake up in the morning tmr? Sheeeesh. I don care, i must wake up. I must i must i must! And so our plan for tmr after Sentosa is......... I have no idea! He's having soccer!! And what am i gon do? Erm maybe i'll meet itah or if she's not free then i suppose i'll be over at my uncle's. How tt? Hmm not bad.

Im turning 20 this year. I feel so OLD. :/

2008-01-12T02:36:00.000+08:00

Today i hepled Fad to wash his bike after 5 months to be exact! We took bout an hour plus to do tt and it was super tiring. But fun! Try it, you'll love it! Just like I DO! Haha ok merepek. Anyway, you know he hates to layan me whenever im like maknenek. Tts what he says to me. Cause i realised tt whenever im excited bout something, he'll be gg, "Yelahhhhhhhhhh.....", "Dah lahhhhhhhhh....." or "I knowwwwwww.....". It's irritating okay. Bingit is one thing, another thing is he always give me this expression. :/ Benci benci benci!! Once i merajuk or what cause hes like sooooooooo baik gilerrrrrr. Wahh die peh pujuk bukan main lagi k. Hahaha. But funny. He's f'ucking cute lah. It's almost 2years we're together and so far i'd like hym the way he is. :j And and andddddd how'd you feel if outsiders were to admire your bf/gf? I mean you do love and like your partner, but when others puji2 dorang, you yourself would be perfectly feel happy bout it too right? But NOT more than tt lah please. It's too much if tt person is too obsessed wit hym/her. True? Ok nvm. I know im talking crap right now. Well im just wasting my time you see, while waiting for hym to call me back. Rightttttttttt, now i've no slightest idea to what's our plan tmr. This is just so troublesome and yes i hate to think and crack my brain to think of where we wanna go, what to do blablabla. Maybe you guys would think, since you guys have no plans, why not just stay at home and sleep! Right? Haha. I don wanna rot at home, it's super boring. But i know, by hook by crook, we're gon end up somewhere. MAYBE. Hehe. Let me tell you something. There was once where we thought, "Hey why not go somewhere we've never been to, but there must be a theatre too!". Since we really wanted to watch American Gangster. And so there we were at Tampines Mall. Well well well. We ended up JUST eating! Can you belive tt? Tts because the show is not out yet! Freaking nice. :/ My bad, i dint even check out the showtimes and so pandai2 go there. Ye lah so confident kan kat situ ade wayang, but tak semestinye got tt show. AHAR! At last we headed to Bukit Batok, West Mall to catch tt movie. Hehe so slenger. I feel so so sooo slenger. Wahahaha! Ok i know, enough of my nonsense. I feel like as thought im talking to myself now. Plus im smiling like a stupid moron while im typing this out. Shit.

Have you people ever sweat like a pig before? :j

Happy 2008!

2008-01-12T01:30:00.000+08:00

Hello! I've not been updating for quite sometime and i think it's gon be deleted soon. Because i'm just too lazy to blog. Sheeesh! Oh well i'm beginning to miss my girlfriends. Alot alotttt. Call me up soon okay. OH! Anyway please DON'T watch Dan In Real Life. It's not f'ucking nice at all. I mean just don't waste your money ok. Well, afterall it was my idea. Heh! I've been out wit Fad, Shuk and Shikin lately. Overall it's not bad. Hehehe. :j Ok bye!!

2007-12-08T04:07:00.000+08:00

Its 4.08am now. Im still awake. Im super excited for tomorrow's Zoukout please! Its gon be only me & Fad, only the both of us. How sweet. Hehe. Too bad the rest couldnt make it. I don think its gon be a waste cause afterall Zoukout is only once a year, so why not kan? Uhmm tts my thinking lah kan. Ok nevermind, drop tt. Im just freaking excited!!

And I cant wait for 20th to come cause my cousins are having a party over at ESCOTT. I bet its gon be awesome and fantabulous. They're hoping Randy could make it. :j We'll see.

2007-12-06T00:55:00.000+08:00

BALI- LIVING ROOM

Me & my pretty girls

Here's just SOME of the pictures. Something's terribly wrong wit this blogger and i cant upload the rest. So i hope you'll enjoy my pictures alright! Hehe. Anyway those top pictures were taken while i was at a club in Bali. Its named Living Room. Anyway i really love love love Bali!!

Ok so that's all for now. Hope to see you guys at ZOUKOUT tis sat yea!

Love,
Ita

2007-11-20T02:06:00.000+08:00

Mom, Atiqah, Danick, Aleeya, Me & Kak Long

I've decided to post an entry since i've not been updating for quite sometime now. It's either im too busy wit work or just super lazy. Haha so sorry ok.

So just wanna update to you guys tt im gg for a holiday to Bali next week, 26th Nov till 1st Dec wit ma family and cousins. And yes i cant fucking wait! Im damn excited about this trip for this is the first holiday im gg after such a longgggggggggggggg time. You heard me. Long time. You know, eversince dad met wit an accident, my family hasnt been having any trips for years. And now hes recoving, so why not? Oh yeah Syahidah's not gon be wit us. How sad. She's schooling. Maybe im gg KL wit her during her school holidays lar.

Im gon upload pictures soon ok. Not today lar. Im just lazy so bear wit me. Hehe. Im sure you'll love me for putting Klye's pic up. I mean YOU HAVE TO!! HAHAHA!

Awhhh im in love wit KLYE PATRICK please.

2007-10-11T02:26:00.000+08:00

Baby came over for interview at ma place today and yes! Hes gon work wit me! Of course im happy plus exhilarated plus everything! Ifah's working wit me now, and soon Baby's gon join us. YAY! Hes gon start work next tuesday, together wit me. :) Best lah for me, can see hes super manje and mentel face plus his sweet smell! So now, wenever we're working together, we can go to work and back together. Its a fucking great feeling okay.

Work has been great. And having a chance to work wit one of your friends is fun! Collegues and managers are great, we can get along very well so there's no problem at all for me. I enjoy working there and i love the people around me. But im kinda sad actually, one of ma manager's transferred to another outlet. Hes friendly and very funny and nice lah. Gon miss hes merepek-ness/crap-ness. AHAR!

So far, 3 days straight both ifah and hady went home wit us. I mean, we live quite nearby and so, thanks to our lovely boyfriends who sanggup to pick us up. You guys are so sweet lah. Hehe. And hady, eventhou he stays at tampines, he sanggup come down to Pasir Panjang just to send and fetch ifah from work. How sweet is it? The sacrifice all that. If i were hym eh, honestly i'll think twice lah. Hehe no offence okay! Nie frank punye cakap. Haha!

3 more days to Hari Raya! Whee!!! Hehe im all excited bout it please! Why? Cause ma cousins and relatives from malaysia n spore is coming over to ma place on malam raya! Happy gila siak. They're gon sleep over here till i dunch know when. Nyeahaha. As long as i get to meet all of them im happy enough. So now im just counting the days till they come here. To be exact, 1 more day baby! :)

And im off till sun! Gon meet Mr.Sweetface tmr. Well whats ma plan for tmr eh? Ok lets see. Im gon cheque of ma salary then have ma hair dyed brown, have ma nails manicured & pedicured too, buy a bag. Alamak balls lah! Like as if ive got enuff cash!

Okay tts all! I miss you lah FADZULY!

2007-09-22T02:22:00.000+08:00

OMG. The surprise. The presents. The gifts. Boyfriend was SO sweet. Im really touched. :j

I wasnt expecting HYM to fetch me from work today BUT yes he did! I was busy talkg talkg and talkg wit my manager & staffs at work and i dint realised he was outside waiting for me. Hell yeah i dint notice hes existence! HAHA! I was on my way to the bustop and thereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Hes right infront of me! Wouldnt you be surprise and touch? Well i was. And indeed i was super super happy! Oh yea i forget to ask hym, "Why dint you offer me to put my things in the box eh?" Initially i thought of asking but tgk cam kesian, he has to off hes engine and open the box for me. So i just hopped on hes bike and went home. And when i was about to sit, he gave me a bouquet of flowers wit a bear & an adidas handbag. :j Aww. What more can i ask for right? HAHA!

Oh yea! There's another gift i got! Which is, a FINE of $200. Ok you guys might be laughing but its not funny. Really. This is the gift i get for my birthday. Fuck. But i think i deserve it and it teached me a lesson yes? I hope so. Itah, pay the fine together wit me at the end of the month ok? Hehe. Atleast he made me not to drool over the FINE i received at noon today.

I LOVE MUHAMMAD FADZULY!

2007-09-16T04:35:00.000+08:00

Met darling bf ytd and its wonderful and amazing and and and lovely! He came over to breakfast wit me and ma family and then we headed to sentosa. Initially we thought of gg to luge & skyride cause it sounded pretty fun from what i've heard so far. But too bad we were late! So we decided for the cable car ride to sentosa as well as mount faber, since we dint wanna waste our trip there. Hehe. Omg i sound disgusting. But hey! We've not met for days ok. Rindu tao. Hahaha! Just imagine lar he's busy wit work and so am i. But nevermind shall not elaborate further. Only those who's really close wit me knows what i mean.

Tmr we're planning to breakfast together. Yea. And before tt, we're gg to geylang and then to DHL balloon. Dad assured me and bf tt we're gon have free admission so why not! Nyeahaha. If not im sure gon kick his ass. HAHAHA!

2007-09-07T03:52:00.000+08:00

Im really stressed out please. Someone please give me an advise or something. I just have no idea which job should i choose. Should i work at Gotham Penthouse as a waitress or Office as a telemarkater?

Ok i give you the details.
For Gotham Penthouse, its Mon-Sat, Sun off. For full-timers the pay is $1600, part-timers $7.50/hr. Working hours is 9pm-5am.
For Office, its Mon-Fri, 9am-5pm. $1400 per month.

I was having this thinking... If i work at Gotham, i'd have to sacrifice alot of things. Be it boyfriend, girlfriends and even my family. Everything will change once i started working. And i don think im ready to go through this stage of life yet. Its too much for me to handle. I think? Ok maybe not now but soon i have to by hook by crook. Im so sad lar ok. I wont have the time for sayang, no more night calls, night out, camping or partying. Ohhh actually the fact is i havent been partying for quite some time. Hehe. But its been awhile and i missed all tt.

Anyway thanks alot girlfriends for accompanying me for interview just now! Zarifah & Siti: You girls are really wonderful please! Having them around..... Ahhhhh.......The feeling's just so nice! Crazy girls. From one topic to another. Its real fun ok! Remember we were heading to Velvet Dragon and i suddenly shouted? It really wasnt on purpose and i dint wanna scare you girls for nothing tao! Just imagine theres a little toad/frog hopping beside Siti and it went towards Zar. I noticed it and i screamed immedieately lar! I stayed at my position ok, which is i was behind both of them. And Zar was also screaming but kan! She stayed there for quite sometime tao! I mean if i were her i would have ran away not remain standing. It was approaching her ok! Zar, I think you were abit silly lar. Hehe. You need time to think what you should do next yes? HAHAHA!! Whatever it is, i want more of it okay!!! Nyeahahaha!!

And tts tt! Going shopping wit momma tmr! YAY! I'll make a choice like it or not, before 4pm later. Cos i'll have to reach work at 5.30pm tmr. Tsktsk. How sedih!!!

Please leave me your comments okay. I really need it. Ok i love all of you! WAHAHHAA! Im off.

2007-09-03T01:50:00.000+08:00

I miss my sayang so much.

I miss my girls so much too.

Inform me when you girls are free and we'll meet okay?

Ok im off to sleep!

Gotta wake up early tmr to meet my babyboy!

2007-08-08T03:47:00.000+08:00

Bf's over at my place now, doing hes project. :j :j :j

Ok so i went to buy my baju raya just now. Its fucking expensive lar please. Ok sheesh i don wanna brag so let me end here.

Goodbye peeps!

Anyway i cant wait for this thurs! Im gon watch fireworks wit sweetheart! YAY!

2007-08-03T02:32:00.000+08:00

Yo people! Its 2.33am and im still awake. Ok i know it sounds so lame. Ahar! Im bored lar actually. What shall i post about? Ok lets see.

First and foremost im still waiting for my interview, for my school. Im going there tmr to check out the school wit Babydear.

Ytd, i went to watch Baby played soccer, together wit my sister, for the first time and im proud of hym. Ive never seen hym played before after 17months with hym. Really! Even he was placed 3rd, im still very proud ok! Hahaha. Still won a medal. And tt medal is something for hym to remember during hes olden days.

Itah's gon start work tmr. Thats so early. Fast too i mean. Its just ytd she went for the interview. And oh! We planned to find a job after her trip to langkawi but i think things dont always go as planned. Its okay. Im still glad shes back to work FINALLY after months rotting at home. Right girlf? Hehe. Well im dating her out together wit her boyf this sat. Babydear said tt there's Baybeats this sat so why not asked them along right? The more the merrier. And also, its been long since i meet her and do i sound like i miss her? Hell NO! Dont anyhow think rubbish lar! AHAR kidding! Okok not funny.

For today, ive been home the whole day. Let me have a fake hip hip hooray for myself! I think ive been good and helpful today lar. I feel good u know. Why? Cos i cleaned up the house today! (only 2 rooms to be exact) but its tiring ok! I spent hours cleaning the fan, the windows, the ceilings and all. BUT, with the help of my maid. Thank god shes ther. IF NOT I think i'll be a dead meat if ive to work all alone wit 2 kids who keep on messing up the house! Argh. All they know is to mess up the house by taking out the books, scribbling on them, stacking up all the pillows and leave it just like tt. Imagine tt. And sometimes, they scribbled their faces with permanent markers! HAHAHAHHA!! How naughty can they be. They're annoying as well but come to think bout it, they're still small kids. They'll end up to mischieves every now and then.

And oh they're having Sports Day this Sunday. Which pri or sec school has sports day on a sunday? Think bout it. Hahaha. Only kindergartens i think. Im going to Yishun stadium wit my uncle and sisters to watch them having their sports they. We've to reach there at 730 in the morning lar ok! It means ive to wake up as early as 6am to get ready cos im taking the MRT there. Waahh fuck lar. Damn early i know. Nevermind. For the sake of Aleeya & Danick, i'll wake up! =)

I cant wait for National Day thou! I really cant! And its only next week. Weeehooo!! It means i can spend time wit Babydear more. Tralalala. Ok im out. My stomach is aching. So bye!!

2007-07-28T04:25:00.000+08:00

"Jangan risau WE figure it out ok b. Whatever job you do, i'll stand by you always. I love you." Which means, "Dont worry WE'LL figure it out." Thats what Bf said. Im worried about my future. What kind of job can i get? What Bf said to me really made sense. I mean this is really serious. I really have to think what im gon do and what i really want in life. And now im really worried. Cause ive been taking things easy and lightly these days. I cant help it but keep thinking bout this. Shit.

I wanna have a bright future. I don wanna remain stagnant and be a lazy-bum (like i am now). Im just super lazy and i know i have to change. Actually its more of uhh i want it or not. Its basically up to me. I don wanna live life full of regrets, just like i did in the past. I never wanna take things lightly anymore.

Theres an answer to everything that happened and i'll try to figure out whats the missing pieces i've missed. I really need Bf & Momma right now.

Oh yea. It took me an hour to post this. I wonder what took me so long........**

2007-07-27T03:10:00.000+08:00

I ajak my friends teman me go school tmr for like skejap aje, tu pon susah. I mean yesterday i asked my girls if they're available today. And everyone said they're busy, got stuffs to do. Ok i understand tu takpe. Tros eh i ask again, i msged alot of times tu pon tak reply. I msg again and she replied, "Im not sure. See how." I mean wth, i need someone to teman go school only for like 15mins? Just to fill in form.

At last, i ajak b teman me. Thats the last thing in my mind. Cause i understand tt he's schooling and working tmr, like kesian seh. Mesti penat. But takkan i go to school alone pulak. So i just tried my luck. &yes! He said, "B.. I da nak balik nie.. Alright i'll go wit you tmr.. I nantok ar.. I nak tido nie.. U tido jugak k.. Jiwe cikit ngan i.. Haha.. See you tmr k darling.. I love ya.." WEEEE!! Im so happy lar ok. Thanks alot lah sayang. I really love you.

2007-07-25T14:11:00.000+08:00

Im HOME. Like usual. Its like as though im having holidays, but uhh of my own. HAHAHA. Its like if i want to then i'll come, if not don bother asking me to. I've yet to let my teacher know bout tis matter. Oh geez i think she might have a rough idea perhaps no?

I've been thinking bout tis private school. Its expensive really. &uh its a 1yr course to get a cert, &to get a diploma you'll have to continue for another 18mths. But as far as i know, the 1yr course consists of, practical projects & work plus study at the same time. Cool right? You'll go to school for 1day, and the rest of 4days you'll work. I mean the pay you get at the end of the month, half of it will go for your fees. And the remains you can keep. That sounds pretty interesting right?

Oh and i'd heard bout Harriet too. To attain a cert for tis one, you'll only have to go for 6mths course. &to get a diploma continue for another 1yr. BUT theres no attachment, i mean work at all. Boring. Its all theory and im not the kind who likes theory and wordy stuffs. Its just so not me.

&i think meanwhile im not schooling, i'll find a job. Yea but tt i'd have to wait till my dear dear itah comes back from her trip to langkawi. Dont worry okay i'll wait. Sweet kan? Hahaha.

I miss my dear fadzuly alot. &i cant wait for tis saturday. Am gon watch fireworks wit hym. Woohooo! I really miss spending quality time together wit my boyfriend. Hes the sweetest thing tt has ever happened to me. Imagine tt people has talk shit bout you but one day, he came to you saying tt he dont care what people bitch bout you cause he knows tt you're not tt kinda girl and even if you are, you will change. Shall i say further why i love hym & still holding on to hym? :j

2007-07-25T01:48:00.000+08:00

Im feeling so shitty & cold right now.

Im off.

Bye!!

2007-07-24T19:24:00.000+08:00

I've decided to change my skin, a rather simple one. Getting bored wit the old one please. HA HA!

Oh if you're doubtful whether i'm quitting school, your right. Yes i am & i've think bout it. I've told mom bout it & she seems to agree wit my decision cause she knows tt her daughter is very lazy and so not disciplined! No la kidding u think im what? Of course i wana continue my studies but only of my interest! This accounting course is a die-die must study & like, like it or not. Argh i don like to force myself to like something. It just don feel right. True?

I thought of joining Guilford School of Hospitality. Its a 1yr course. Not bad right? Uhhh btw people (esp for itah) , hospitality means we're dealing wit hotels & tourism issues, not uhh hospitals ok? Hahaha!! Well i wont talk much bout this 1st cause its not yet confirmed. I just wanna do something which interests me la. Lagi2 Casino & IR will be opening soon in Singapore. So i guess there must be a tight competition to get a job in the future.

Bf, i wont be seeing you till tis saturday. &im already missing you so much. Gtg now. Ana has come!

2007-07-19T14:56:00.000+08:00

Today's my 17th anniversary wit my Mr Gorgeous Boyfriend! Wee! A very hip hip hooray to US! Thought of gg out and have a some little celebration but uhh bf is working. Yeah, tmr will do ok baby? Perhaps i'll give hym a surprise by f-f-fetching hym from school? Hehe i know he loves it when i do tt la. He manje ah he! Or maybe i'll buy a small cake or what eh? Tengok la how. Hahaha! I cant wait to meet Bf tmr. We're catching a movie, uhhh Vacancy? Yea. Well i donno what it's about. I guess i'll go do some search on tt movie before i watch it. Or else it'll turn out boring like Harry Potter. Urgh. Makes me wana puke.

&yes both Bf & i have deleted our friendster due to some animals who cant see us happy together. I mean like wtf right? Both of us cant be bothered wit this type of issues no more. And im too sick and tired of these animals. Moreover we dont need friendster for each other's company. Right? Oh do you guys wonder who tt person is? Well im definitely not the type to name-drop so just count yourself lucky ok? &oh wit your kinda statement you have said bout me and somehow for those shit you talked about me and even with your presence, Bf & i are doing SO good.n :j Maybe theres something wrong with you people. So iri hati and dengki. Asal eh? Lack of love is it? Haiya stop disturbing us la okay.

Oh yea, anyway hows my font? Nice anot? Please tell me ok. Thank you. Im outz. =)

2007-06-24T20:22:00.000+08:00

Im back from KL after a week ived been there. Kl was abso-fuckin-lutely FUN. NO parents NO nothing! Having late nights everyday, tts of course a routine for us. Nyahahahaha! Oh boyfriend tag along too. And did i tell you guys tt yes, i miss hym now tt we have to go on wit our daily life routine. Cos u see, its been a week since we spent nights and nights together and now... Everything has to change. Oh yea, hes having hes exams thruout this whole week. Which means i'll be home and be a good good girl. AHAR!! Im gon miss tt mentel boyfriend of mine la. Hehehe! Yes im gon upload the pictures taken while i was in KL very soon ok. We went for abit of shopping, the guys(mainly my cousins & fad) these 3 guys ah, everynight without fail they would go out to play pool/snooker/ whatever lucky ball u name it ok. I mean they were betting on money. HAHAHHA! & guess what? Only me and atiqah was home! I mean only we 2 girls are left at home. Hell yeah. We watched DVDS or if not, we played PS2. Holy shit i miss KL so much!

T-BAG, SCOFIELD & STIFLER, YER ALL MISSED BY SARA. :J

2007-06-15T17:40:00.000+08:00

hey ppl im off to KL tis sunday. oh yea, tt means i wont be blogging. maybe lah. IF im NOT lazy i'll blog when im there. hehe. im gg there for few days, be back by next wkend. ok gtg now! im gg town to SHOPP before i go KL! weee!!

boyf, i sayang u alot. u know tt dont u? hahaha. it'll be fun wen we get there. don worry hun. =)

2007-06-12T00:15:00.001+08:00

he's the ONE for me.

we arent complete without zar

ok we got nothing better to do ok dammit

sweet arent we? HEHEHE!

tts my baby taz, & fad's mickey

hes new helmet. i somehow find it rather cute on hym. :j

i regretted for not taking this sticker! no fair

my baby tweety

these are pictures which i took recently. so yea.. have fun looking yea.. look till u guys get bored la k.. hehehe!! ok bye!

2007-06-11T23:41:00.000+08:00

i kinda have phobia wit taxi's from today onwards. FUCK those taxi drivers ok. i almost fell and could have got myself injured. oh well, i did actually. but abit je. my knee was hit by the taxi but i was lucky i didnt fell down. & for tt, im SO glad. have i ever told u how much i trust fad when we're on the road? yes i do trust hym on tt. but not other drivers. u see, no matter how safe u ride, do u think the rest of the drivers/riders drive safely? of course NOT! they can be very reckless too u know. SHESSH. i don wanna talk bout this no more. i just thank god we both are okay. =)

i heard someone horn-ing at us and to my suprise, its itah and tosh. HAHAHA! and i dint expect them to be at bukit merah as well! cute kan. i know i know. hahahaha!! oh yes! did i tell u i bought stickers for my helmet? its fucking CUTE okay! my honey bought hes too! oh yea, we went to ah boy after tt to buy hes helmet. i find it niceeee. =) anyways, wen we were about to make payment, i realised i forgot to bring my wallet! fuck right. hahaha. thank god baby brought hes nets.

ok tts all folks. i love you!

2007-06-05T00:50:00.000+08:00

the four boys, BOY, ABG JOJO, ABG SYAFIQ & FAD

WIT MY LOVELY COUSINS, 2ND JUNE 07, AFTER 2AM)
(ABANG JOJO, ABANG SYAFIQ, KAK EZI, BOY, SARAH, FADZULY, ATIQAH & ME)

2007-05-31T11:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY FADZULY!!
I LOVE YOU!!
HEHEHE & I BET YTD WAS FUNNN EVENTHOU WE HAD TO QUEUE FOR 3 FUCKING HOURS TO ENTER ST.JAMES.
I HAD FUNN WIT THE GIRLS & OF COS FAD..
NYAHAHAHAHA!
OK BYE!

2007-05-30T14:29:00.000+08:00

2007-05-25T18:53:00.000+08:00

IM STILL HOPING & WAITING.

I LOVE YOU.

2007-05-24T01:28:00.000+08:00

isnt he HOT? HAHAHHAHA!!!

MENTEL GUY

Its been almost EVERYDAY we met each other. Im so glad(: Im glad tt we're not arguing much like before. & yes! Next week on the 31st, which falls on a Vesak day, is hes BIRTHDAY! OMG! I have not even bought for hym something. I have not even planned anything ok. Ridiculous am i? Shesshh. Anybody, any suggestion? Please let me know alright. Ok go!

Theres a match between AC MILAN & LIVERPOOL later at 230am. Hell yea! Im watching it, are u guys watching it too? Hahahaha!! Oh well, boyf's out wit hes frens to Simpang Bedok to watch the match. Tsktsk. He asked if i would like to follow hym as well, but i insisted. :j

OK BYE!! TILL I BLOG AGAIN OK. IM DAMN LAZYYYY LAHH.. MUAHAHAHHA!!

2007-05-15T20:26:00.000+08:00

SOOOO lazy to update man. So lazy to study already. So lazy wanna go school la. Im just fucking plain lazy right now! I donno what the hell is wrong wit ME? I mean im fucking destroying ma life, ma future. Yes i know. But im just fucking lazyyyy. Tsktsk. Its been a fucking wk since i last went to school. I think its good if FAD bangs ma head on the wall. I guess its time already to wake up. HELLO HELLO? Its no longer holiday for u, MASYITA! Ok i'm gonna stop.

Life has never been more wonderful wit FAD, ZARIFAH, ICE, ITAH & ANA around me. I love them much. Its blissed to have them u know. Relationship wit boyf has been great. Doink!! ;j I wonder how's Zarifah handling her life right now. I hope everything's been mended and into places again. Not like last thurs, when everything was in a fucking mess. & yea, last thurs was when i last met ZAR & ICE to have some fun and gossips. SSHHH!! HAHAHAHA! I cant wait for more gossips and girls-talk wit them lovelies ok. Im just looking forward to the day when all are free to hang out. Beep me alright girls?

Oh i forget to mention. FAD & I took public today! Weeweeett! HAHAHA! Da lama seh tak take public together wit hym. & i now he missed it. Right baby? Hehehe. We took the train all the way from east to cck. Its nice to travel in public afta so long, yea. But trust me, the trip from east was such a BORE. Oh well.. Wondering why we took public? Ask me personally alright. & yes. Both of us decided if we were to get married, WE'RE gonna stick to the West. YAY-ness! East is just so boring, right honey? Hahaha. Ok tts all. I think this is ma longest entry man. WAAAAAA... Fucking long ahhhh.. Okok i think im gonna have to sleep early today, going back to sch tmr(like as if sch re-opens tmr, heh!). & ZAR, im gonna meet u afta ma class alright. I'm gonna company u to visit akin :))

2007-05-12T19:08:00.000+08:00

ENJOY MA PICTURES & ENTRY OK!

now, tts HOT.

im sure he likes it. hahaha!

MAN U die hard fan. isnt he super cute? hahaha!

Its been quite sometime since i last updated! Yes, no, maybe? Anyways, im sorry okay. Plain lazy to blog these days.

Oh well what shall i update yea? Let me see.. Okay lets start off wit me and boyf. We hadnt been spending quality time together, i mean really really together.. The "togetherness", get it? Only both of us hang out and have fun bla bla bla. Yes, i miss all tt. REALLY, i do. Hes just too busy busy busy wit work. Yea, just have to bear wit it. I miss hes hugs and kisses. Hes warmth. I miss hym cuddling me and all. Hoping to meet hym within these few days but oh, too bad.. I have a kenduri arwah to attend tmr. Perhaps i'll ask hym to tag along.. MAYBE :j -rub palms-

Now i can say tt i really envy those people who are in LOVE. Sugar sugar. Donno why eh. & ytd when i met tosh & itah, goodness. I must say they both really look good and sweet together. OMG! Was kinda jealous. Why? Basically because i miss having FAD around like those days. IF only he was there... Wouldnt it be nice? -sigh-

2007-05-02T21:52:00.000+08:00

1st May

Otw to town wit Fad and my cousins

MC CAFE LIDO

danick and aleeya

Just For Laughs!

Model: Boy

Camera-girl: Ita

2007-04-30T00:14:00.000+08:00

Celebration for Momma's 43rd Birthday at Balithai

(Family + Cousins + Uncle + Fad)

the far right is ma dearest momma

tts ma dad

ma parents and aleeya

me & danick

Thanks to Syahida fer treating us all at Balithai! Woah the food there was amazing! Superb delicious but v expensive too. I mean veryyyy. Hahaha!! Tts a nice place to eat during birthdays, anniversaries or whatever more la.. Im sure momma likes it! Plus plus the presents! Hehs. Im sure ma sister must have spent over hundreds & hundreds or dollars.. Don worry, im NEXT to treat u guys!! Seriously. But u'll have to wait. Till when? Till i graduate from school & have a permanent job tt is! TSK TSK. Wait long long ok.. Hehehhe!!!

I cant wait fer tmr.. Sweety's gonna fetch me from sch! Ma cousins from KL are coming tmr too! WEEEE!! & we're planning to watch late night movie wit ma cousins all.. Nice kan ramai2 tgk.. I bet its gonna be FUN FUN FUNNNNN!!! Im so so longing to watch SPIDERMAN 3! Im sure by now its all full house everywhere. Silly me, dint book the tix earlier. Oh i was afraid tt if i were to book it in advance, im afraid if when tt day comes, something will crop up & destroy ma plan. Tts ma thinking k.. Sucks kan? Hahaha!! Just hoping tt tmr there's a sneak preview of SPIDERMAN 3 at ard midnight!! Thanks dear for meeting me at 330am eventhou u just finished work & it was pouring ytd. I really love you...... (;

2007-04-28T00:27:00.000+08:00

PICTURES OF THE DAY !!

Hmm know why im blogging now? Simple. Cos im simply pissed and im driven up the wall cos tak dpt kluar. And i donno what to do la seh. Im not even sleepy. Fer sure ma girls having hell lots of fun out there. Ohhh pity myself!! Im stuck at home doing what, BLOGGING? BOOOOO~!

Today was supposed to go out wit ma girls [zarifah&aisyah] to MOS. Baru ingat nak enjoy tao. But unfortunately, i couldnt sleep over at ma uncle's! Momma wont allow me! Angin ape siak die? I think angin malam la kot. URGHH. Kanina betul. Anyway, im really sorry ok girls.. I dint mean to back-off last minute tao. U know why lah kan.

& today i met itah, my crazy bitch. HAHA! No offence eh babe. Im kidding! Hehehe.. So fer the first time i was wit her brother and cousins. Kecoh tap dorang.. Sikit2 ketawa!! HAHAHA!! They're very nice ppl thou(: Its nice being around wit them.. Lalala..

Im waiting fer tmr.. Gonna meet ma dearest dear! Wiwiiitt!! Hahaha!! I cant wait u know.. I really cant.

Enjoy ma entry & pictures okay[mind ma tak ter-urus cum messy hair okay].. Hehehe love you all! MUAH!

2007-04-27T01:33:00.000+08:00

How's ma song ? Is it nice ? Please let me know k.. But whatever it is, i really love this song .. Sweet gitu .. HAHAHA!

Anyway i met ma darling today .. He looked just fine tao .. Only until he showed me hes legs/foot .. Oh well i dint noticed hes toe like terkoyak .. Hes new adidas slipper aso like rabak already walaopun baru jek beli few wks back .. But itu semua tak pasal sangat, as long as he's alright dah cukup .. And so .. We went to town to watch WILDHOGS. Fucking hilarious sia tt show .. Hahaha very funny show ..

Anyone having trouble sleeping ? Im here .. Do call me up anytime if u cant seem to fall asleep alright? Hey wait! Actually, im the one having trouble sleeping .. Hell yea ! I just couldnt shut ma eyes before 3am .. Fucking irritating right ? I wonder ah, how come ma eyes donno how to get tired and sleepy !! URGHH !

I LOVE FADZULY SO MUCH !!!

2007-04-25T20:35:00.000+08:00

Sayang got hes spark 135 limited edition ytd like i posted in the previous entry. & less than 5 mins he sat on hes bike, he was hit by a car! Oh hell i was shocked. Baru je dapat moto terus accident. From what i heard, hes bike condition abit rabak la.. Dented here & there. But shukur alhamdulillah he's alright. =] Only bruises & scars on hes hands & legs. I cant wait to meet him seh. I wanna see how's he doing. If hes alright and stuffs. Risau u know. But i'll have to wait till erm.. Fri or Sat? Lama eh? Anyway i really want hym to join the what insurance thing.. What is it called eh? Life insurance ke? Erm not so sure ahh.. But in case of any accidents or what, we can claim.. So yea. I thought of sponsoring (cheh macam paham jek aku nie!) as in pay fer hes monthly insurance. Camne eh? Im still wondering. Nemind i'll stop talking bout tt.

Anyway who wanna meet me on fri eh? I wanna buy a helmet fer maself. Hehehe. Anybody wanna teman me? I like no shame ahhh? I know.. HAHAHAHA!!

I just hope ma baby's gonna take safety precautions next time. Till i blog again!!!

2007-04-23T00:42:00.000+08:00

Boyf's gon buy hes bike tmr !! Hes gon buy spark 135 .. Yes im excited .. But im worried at the same time too .. My girlf's whose boyf's own a bike will surely understand why im worried & what im referring to right ? HAHAHA !! Anyway .. I cant wait fer this fri/sat .. Anyone who's free ? Wanna meet me ? Hehe tahu malu plak aku eh ? Hahaha !! Who cares .. Muahahaha !! Anyone yg takda plan or wanna go out, just let me know eh ? PRETTY PLEASE !! Ok bye !!

2007-04-21T02:22:00.000+08:00

Its been a roller coaster ride in my life for the past few days. I really need my friends at this point of time. And guess what? They're there for me! Im so touched to have them okay.

Espeacially to: Itah, Zarifah & Aisyah

Thanks dear for being there for me. Thanks for giving me the courage and advices. Thanks for helping me out. I really owe you guys. I love you guys so much. I dont think im able to pull this thru without all of you. I really feel so honoured to have you as my friends.

Met Ice & Itah today. Thanks girls for making time for me(: & yea, i couldnt sleep thru'out the night ytd. & Itah was the one whom i confide into. Shes sucha darling sweetheart.

Tts all for now. Im sorry i wont go into details.. Anything just find me on msn yea..

2007-04-18T21:48:00.000+08:00

I certainly hate this feeling.. It makes me wonder what wrong have i done & what did i do to deserve this? Sometimes i feel tt all my attention fer hym just makes me wonder if hes even thinking about me? I feel like i've given my all and even try to be there fer hym but i dont feel like he even care. I don feel special anymore. ):

I dont know what to do.

I dont feel like eating.

I dont feel like gg to school tmr.

I dont feel like sleeping.

I dont feel like bathing.

I dont feel like shitting/pooing.

I cant smile like before.

I feel very........... I dont know.

I want to be alone tt is.

I hope im strong enuff to pull these thru.*SIGH*

2007-04-12T02:38:00.001+08:00

back row: uncle whom im really close to (in red); uncle cu wit Danick and Mamat (in cream); daddy (black); uncle from malacca (blue), my daddykins (brownish-cream)

center row: my grandparents and my cousin

front row: my cousin (in black); my uncle (in blue)

This is so heartening fer me. I heard someone yelling at the door at noon today. "Kak long, open the door fer me. Im outside wit the CNB officers. Uncle cu kena tangkap." I was shock to see hym and other 5 CNB officers. 1 was carrying hes child. Without further ado i opened the door and grabbed Danick. I almost cried when i saw hym, with hes handcuffs on. Sedih lah kan. Hes the one at the back row; center(4th from both right and left).

"Kak long tolong jaga Danick baik2 tau. Please ok.. Takda orang nak jaga dia.." Tts what he said to me, hes last words. Terus he called my nenek, "Mak, Beetle nak cium mak. Maafkan Beetle. Mak jangan risau pasal Beetle. Jaga diri mak baik2 ngan tolong jaga Danick ya."(he gelar himself tt since he was small la).

& so having said tt, now i have a little brother of my own. Finally! Erm what i mean is i have 3 sisters kan.. Kadang2 terasa jugak wanna have a brother. I'll surely takecare and love hym as much as i love my sisters. I kasihan wit Danick you know, everybody in my family does. He kept saying, "Danick tadi naik kereta police. Ayah kena tangkap. Mak pun. Mak kena marah ngan polis. Ayah kena pukul ngan tendang ngan police. Police jahat." And he'd cry after tt. Eventhou hes only 4yrs old, im sure this kind of thing he'll remember till he grows up.

Ok tu je i wanna update. OK BYE!